Saturday, June 23, 2007

it's finally happened

i was about five or six years old and apparently having a very chatty day. my mother repeatedly told me to "calm down" and "be quiet" but whatever i had to say was obviously too important for me to shut up. finally, at the end of her rope, my mother sat me down, looked me straight in the eye and said "judi, when people are born god gives everyone enough words to last their entire lifetime, but if you talk too much when you are young you may run out of words. when you get old you might not have any words left. so, what i am saying is, before you speak, choose your words carefully. don't go on and on or you just may run out of words".

well, it has finally happened. i have run out of words. i have nothing to say and no words with which to say it. i went shopping with the husband today. i realized i had run out of words in the parking lot at the mall. the husband did a terrible job parking the car. it was on an odd angle, making it impossible for the driver next to us to get into his car. i opened my mouth to mention his mistake but nothing came out. i didn't think too much of it. maybe, i was just being kind. at j. crew after waiting 15 minutes in line to pay for two tee shirts (on sale, two for $30, i am happy to report) a woman with about 500 items (it was a really good sale) cut in front of me. once again, i opened my mouth to speak up and once again, nothing.

after the mall, we stopped at the coffee bean and tea leaf for an iced blended mocha. we took a seat on the patio of the shop and stared at each other. the husband spoke. the usual spousal chit chat. i nodded, i smiled, i opened my mouth and closed it again. i have finally run out of words. i have always been known as loquacious ( i have always wanted to use that word in a sentence or, at the very least, use it as a name for my first born grand daughter - if i ever have one). but now i will be known as the silent one. i can still think and write but i think my speaking days are over. it is not as bad as i thought it would be. you would be amazed at how far smiling and nodding can get you. actually, the only down side of this state of affairs, is that i just hate it when my mother's right.